Saturday, April 5, 2008

Deary April 4th,2008

MY CONFESSION

I standing in one the bridge of live
Without knowing where I should go
There is no place for me to lie down
With burden and sorrow on my wings
Wind told me that I need to fly
I know some day it will happen

I know I’m in the middle of buffeting
And my adversary is watch over me to die
Let me try to fight…..
Let me finish this battle….
No matter what the result
Let me belief on it

I trust with my strength
T trust that I will be fine
Don’t look at me as a child
‘Cause I know I arise
Feel my aura stronger that you

My feet strong enough to walk
For drawing ahead every single complication of live
Don’t stop me…
Just watch over me
‘Cause you will see that I grow up



If you read this poem, you will see the different in every couplet”





BIKE VS CAR

BIKE VS CAR

The wheel rotate on the hot road of east Timor
People pass by adding fuel to the flame
No matter what they do or see
Just walk pass, I paddle my bike
Cars go so fast without permission
Don’t care that some body hit by them.

Here it is my story that I’m be conscious of the word that who have money they will win, and who ever don’t have money they will lose all their life. But I will not let it happen again!!!!!.
It was 1 o’clock in the afternoon, I paddle my bike with heart full of emptiness, and I don’t know why I’m feeling like that, but honesty I feel that way. I pass people that sit on the edge of the road and think what they are doing by sitting there. I know that may be they waiting for some thing, or just want to wasting time and don’t think about the damp situation in their life in Dili, but in opposite road I saw a lot of cars standing in front of the best restaurant in Dilli, I saw some “Malay” (foreigner in tetun language) enjoy eat their lunch in such of heat situation in un control nation.
I paddle my bike with energy from the air that I breathe, cross the road; I feel this situation is unusual especially in Dili. After overstepping the shops that open with the shopkeeper standing in front of the shop, now I standing in the cross road that near by the “Palcio’, (government office). I stop there waiting for green light in traffic light. I saw a lot of cars passed by and some of them push the horn because the cars walk so slowly, and I just laughing on that (I’m thinking why people can’t patient for a couple minutes). But and that moment I don’t realize a taxi bumping my bike and suddenly I fall of and my bike was absolutely broken, I stand up and bring my bike to roadside and come to the taxi driver and ask him to repair, but
“Hey, are you ok?” the driver asked me
“No I’m not alright, are you blind? Could you repair my bike?” I reply with some emotion because my hand and feet hurt.
“Ohh I’m sorry about it.” The driver replays “I will bring you to repair shop and repair your bike” the driver said
(This situation I speak with Indonesian not tetun because I can’t speak tetun)
And suddenly a lot of people surround us. And of them know that I’m Indonesian said
“Huh... forget about him, he is Indonesian” he said
“What?? What the hell are you talking, you hate Indonesian, look at your self, do you think you’re amazing people, you are such damn person, study hard men” I replay with high tense after what he said to me.
“Ok fine let go to the shop” the driver asked me.
And now, I stop fighting with the men that humiliate me. And go with the driver to the shop.
On the way to the shop the driver said “Hey you, we will repair your bike, you pay half and me too, what do you think?”
“Well, you make it broken so you must repair it, not me.” I replay.
“What, it’s not my false, it is your false too” the driver said with anger.
“Hey...are you blind it was red light, so why I stop in that cross and are you blind that you didn’t see the sign?” I replay
After some argument with him, he said like this
“Ok well, that is just bike why don’t you buy the new one, if my bike broken like that I will buy again and throw it the garbage cane” he said like that.
“What. Do you think I have a lot of money, now, buy one for me if you have money?” I asked him because he so proud that he have a lot of money.
“So do you think I’m kind of poor people and you just damp it on the road” I continue with strong argument and he just turned and smiled.

And finally he repairs my bike and left me in the repair shop with a couple dollars and left with the word “Just bike for poor people”
On that time I think “Does rich people always reject poor people?” I really disappointed with it.

After waiting, my bike already normal again and I could ride home. With pain and adumbrate what just happen. I paddle my bike long the way to home. It was about 100 meter a way form my house, I breezy by the road that not cover by asphalt. I saw a car upon the other side walk closer to me and it mean I need to step aside but suddenly the driver push the horn and make me astounding, and the driver didn’t give me way to passed through, in my mind I think “what the hell is that, it is not fair, it is because he have a car and he could disparage other”.

After I got home I think deeper about it, why people have money could buy anything and could disparage other. Is the world law like that?????
I hope not!!!